Resistance is Futile

My mind keeps slipping into negative thoughts and I can't help it. Autumn told me to not let it bother me, to control it, but how do you control something that you don't even know is happening until it is already there? Difficult? Very. Impossible? Probably not.

I just don't want to work to block it out. I just want to have the automatic ability to do so. Kinda like a pop-up blocker in my head. lol



Almost time for my next class. We don't do anything in it, but I really don't want to go.... dunno why, I was in such a good mood earlier and it just went to hell now. Damn mood swings.



It's probably all those energy drinks I've had, but whatever they taste good so pah on that.

I want to get away so bad, but with my Reno vacation, I think I am expecting too much from it. It should just be a way to see old friends and have a brief break from work and school, but I think I'm making it into a great big party in my head lol. Dunno maybe cuz I've heard my brother's stories of what he did in Reno and I expect it to be the same way.

No dreams lately, at least none worth writing down.

No more journeys into my head, I think that's over completely. so I might as well round that blog off.... well I guess I'm putting dreams into it now. A mixture of my concoctions.

Guess I'll have Kyle's friend over and drink and smoke hookah or something, don't really have anything else going on and alcohol is a great way to get to know someone. Well in my case, it's normally a bad thing when I get to know people..... Cuz soon everyone xpects more. If you know what I mean..... and I'm not complaining about that, but.... It has gotten me into a little bit of trouble lately. Drunkeness is a blessing and a curse for me... it's so much fun, but shit always seems to go from bad to worse.

Can't wait to have another bar night though. The pictures and memories (or lack thereof) are always good times.

Maybe I'll clean my room today cuz it kinda looks something like this:


and that's a terrible thing when you are meeting people for the first time and you take them on the tour and it looks like that.

Beat Age of Empires III (just a sidenote.)

still training for that marathon.... need to up mileage though.



Other than that.... nothing is going on. Going to try to go to the football game this Saturday, work sucks, school sucks. blah. I'm bored with the days. I need something exciting to happen.

Current Mood - Bored



Currently Listening to - Still no Ipod or headphones for school :(